Spring cleaning, the season of change, purging and growth.
This spring I have begun to simplify my life materialistically, physically, mentally and emotionally. Also with people. I am queen of having so many people close to my heart. I love people so much, too much at times where it becomes one sided and draining. One of my biggest flaws: I hold so many humans dear to my heart that do not belong there. I try so hard to stay in touch with EVERYONE at all times and be available to EVERYONE always. Why? Why do I do that to myself? When more than half the time I feel so alone? Maybe because only a few of those people reciprocate what I am giving them. I’ve begun to see how special my love and friendship is and not to give it out so freely anymore. Don’t worry, I’m not saying that I am going to become a guarded jaded bitch. But I feel as if I give so much of me away to so many people that I call “friends” that really at the end of the day don’t deserve it. I’ve been, as well as everyone, going through some 23 year old life changing things and I’ve seen so much clearer on who to keep close and whom at an arms length.
People who I thought would support me through anything, that I’ve gone to the moon and back for, that can have it in their hearts to talk negatively about me or in what I do is not meant to be in my heart. Maybe in my mind! But not my heart.
So in the midst of spring cleaning, I am lysoling (new word) my whole self. Swiffering out the baggage and negativity and tossing the trash out of unnecessary people.
Simplicity is key.
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